Sometimes I am so broken, I don't feel pain,
My life is messed up, I want to start it all over again.

Sometimes I get angry with Your apparent lack of care
It seems that You abandon me.  Are You really here?
Sometimes when people reject me I wish I was never born.
I get hurt by their ridicule, contempt and scorn.

Sometimes when I am lonely I want to see Your face,
I want to know You smile at me.  I want to feel Your embrace.

Sometimes I get so very weak, I am ready to give up
Because I don't feel that You support me just enough.

Sometimes I wonder why I keep trying to live by Your rules
When it's so much easier to use the devil's tools.

Sometimes I wonder why I keep helping, sharing, and giving to others
Yet when I need a helping hand, no one ever bothers.

Sometimes I get overwhelmed with depression, pain and sorrow,
I don't want to even think about a tomorrow.

Why don't You reward me for serving You?
Why don't You comfort me when I am sad?
Why don't You answer when I call?
Why don't You fix me when I'm bad?

His Thoughts And Feelings