Gary and Paty

     May God bless you and your ministry!  I know there is great
power in prayer under faith multiplied by many persons-even if it
must be under God's will.  I know this because I was raised in 
the SDA church since birth and a pastor's son at that and I have 
personally seen and felt God's hand at work but I haven't been 
able to get this right in my own life-as far as my marriage is 
concerned.

     I plead my case before God and those that may pray for this 
and that is for the Holy Spirit to contend continuously with my 
wife's (Patty) heart and mind and leave her restless until she 
comes back to me.

     I earnestly pray that the change that has happened to me is 
sincere and genuine and not based on some selfish need, want, or 
obsession because she is my first woman and wife, etc. and that I 
will truly love her unconditionally and take proper care of her 
and our son for the rest of my life.

     That we may be able to reunite together as a complete family 
and raise our son to be Christ-like and live in happiness 
together COLLECTIVELY- Her's, mine's, and our son's.  
It is in such a state that I need a HIGHER POWER to, if possible, 
perform a miracle, God willing.

      I had crushed and smashed and ground any feelings whatsoever she 
may have had towards me (And I know this because I saw them and felt 
them) and yet I lived as though I was still single---in the sense that 
we were married, living under the same roof with our son, but I never 
reciprocated her affection enough, in all its' forms---never showed it 
enough until I woke up and it was too late----------------
So late that now only a HIGHER POWER could change her mind.   
**God's will be done**

      She even warned me, gave me chances for 3-4 YEARS!! and told 
me that one day it would be "Too Late" and now, not surprisingly, 
that day has come and I have been found wanting and with remorse for 
not having listened or cared back then.  It is currently humanly 
impossible to change her mind (at least everything I try backfires-
because it's a little too late now...) and everything I do only drives 
her farther away-and she's already far away at that.

      I know God won't force or impose a person to rekindle or have 
marital feelings, love, affections, etc., towards someone they used to 
have those feelings before, especially if they gave that someone 
millions of chances to reciprocate but they never did, or not enough, 
therefore they finally gave up, but if there is still a possibility of 
a "change of heart" in her then this is my humble, crying, desperate 
petition before God's throne of grace.

      If it is to be so, then His will be done because to God and 
through Him anything is possible.

      If not, then I hope we both find the strength to boldly go 
forth in new directions, living our lives in such a manner that 
one day we, and our son may be found worthy of heaven.

      Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven, in Jesus' 
name, AMEN!