# 1

Dear Sisters in Christ,

It’s a new year. I long for the day when God’s promise to us will be fulfilled, “Behold, I make all things new.” Time will no longer be a constraint. It will not flee away nor drag. Time won’t matter because there will be no need to measure the years. Our focus will be on God and fellowship with Jesus, our days spent in joyful pursuits. Relationships will be what are most important. So, how about now—today?

I ended 2005 with expectations regarding our vacation. For the first time ever we flew to WA to spend Christmas with family. My sister-in-law assured me they always had snow for Christmas, and indeed it had fallen and piled up. However, when we landed in Spokane it was raining, and the temperatures were warmer than in Alabama! The snow was quickly melting, and while we got to tramp in the snow we didn’t get to play in it as planned. It rained nearly every day and the sky was cloudy. Visiting with my brother and family was special. Spending time with aunts and uncles was nice. Sitting one evening with my 92 year old Grandma and sharing conversation was meaningful. We had 3 Christmas style dinners with various relatives during the week we were visiting in WA. I think what I enjoyed the most were the early morning hikes I took with my husband. We climbed several different hills and peaks, often just before the fog and rain enveloped the view. I was reminded often that week, as hard as I try not to have expectations of how I will spend my time, I will be disappointed. My focus needs to be on God and fellowship with Jesus, asking Him to fulfill my life with His joy, and remember that relationships are the most important—not sledding in the snow.

I began 2006 with expectations and anticipation. Our son Luis announced his engagement to Sarah Edison just before Christmas. This morning he pulled out of the driveway with his loaded pickup, heading to Ohio and several weeks of schooling before continuing on to Michigan to job hunt and find a place to live. The wedding is in July. I am happy to welcome another daughter into the family, but I expect they will be living a long ways from here and I will miss them both. I also expect that this summer Irdene and I will be farming as a couple—just as we started years ago before our children were old enough to help. But we only had a garden then! I anticipate trials and challenges—every year has its share. I can look forward to lots of uninterrupted couple time with my hubby. I am trying to see the advantages and delight in the opportunities, but I can assure you that the empty nest isn’t my thing.

Today I went to visit my friend Patty. She is bedfast and hooked to a machine to help her breathe. I’m happy that hospice nurses are coming to take care of her, and I wonder how much time she has left to live. We talked about our families. We talked about one day soon when we can be together in heaven and take walks. We talked about how much we love Jesus and His great love for us. I expect that my friend will die this year, unless God performs a miracle of healing as He did for her last summer. She came home after 3 months in ICU. God has extended her stay on earth for a purpose, but just lying in bed day after day for months must be difficult. I am so thankful for Jesus’ wonderful promise to come again and take us to live in His house where there will be no more pain, suffering, sorrow, or death. When God makes everything new He will wipe away all tears and we will forget the trials of this life. What a glorious expectation! This one will not meet with disappointment, for God’s words are faithful and true.

Whatever expectations you may have for the year ahead, talk them over with Jesus and resolve that your relationship with Him will be your top priority. Expect that God will do great things for you. He says, “Ask, and you will receive.” He delights to give us the desires of our hearts. He wants our joy to be full so that it will overflow to those whose lives we touch. God has expectations for us to—ever thought about that? I think His greatest expectation is for every one of us to accept all He wants to give us and have us HOME with Him.

In anticipation of that day,

Barbara

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# 2

Dear Sisters in Christ,

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." (Phil 4:13) This declaration has been a promise I've clung to throughout my life. During my college years I claimed God's strength. As the challenges of teaching and parenting my children became a steady part of my life this promise reminded me where my help comes from. In the midst of difficult days God has always been my strength. What Moses wrote is true, "As thy days, so shall thy strength be." (Deut. 33:25)

Recently I read another declaration of God's power. The prophet Habakkuk wrote, "The LORD God is my strength. He will make my feet like deer's feet, and He will make me walk on my high hills." (NKJV 3:19) Or as the KJV says, "He will make my feet like hinds' feet, and he will make me to walk upon mine high places." (A hind is a female deer, so ladies, this promise is for us!)

I enjoy hiking. A couple Sabbaths ago my hubby and I cautiously descended into a gorge, trying not to slip and slide down the rocky ravine. The waterfall, archway of rocks, and sunshine we enjoyed made Sabbath special. The climb out of the gorge took energy as I carefully placed my feet on rocks that wouldn't slide, being careful of the terrain under the covering of leaves. I could have used hind's feet that afternoon!

Most people have some way they look at their spiritual life. For me, it's a journey, more often in the form of a mountain hike. Since life is to be a progression in character and growth I figure climbing a mountain is a good comparison. On my journey toward the kingdom there have been rocks to scale, fallen trees to find a way around or over, and narrow, steep inclines to pass. Without Jesus holding onto me I'd never have made it to where I am on the trail today, but long ago have slid over a cliff and been seriously injured if not killed. It's due to God's strength and His hold on my life that I stand firmly on the steep trail of life. I truly believe that my Father, who has promised to make me a new creature in Christ, is changing my feet so I'll be better able to continue on the mountain path of His leading.

I'm not exactly sure what is meant by this verse in regard to walking on the high hills. The Amplified Bible reads, "He makes my feet like hind's feet and will make me to walk (not stand in terror) and make spiritual progress upon my high places (of trouble, suffering, or responsibility)." The Living Bible Paraphrase reads, "The Lord God is my strength, and He will give me the speed of a deer and bring me safely over the mountains." The Clear Word puts it this way. "He helps me run as lightly as a deer, and helps me climb to the heights of the mountains." Whether the mountains are challenges and difficulties or glorious victories with wonderful vistas I need God's continual strength and provision in order to be on a mountain at all.

As I meditated on God giving me feet like a deer, enabling me to climb the mountains, I thought about a book I'd read years ago—Hind's Feet on High Places by Hannah Hurnard. I located it in my bookcase and read it last week while I was sick. It's a good book for such an occasion! This allegory portrays following Jesus as a journey, a climb. I relate to much that the main character Much Afraid experiences in her spiritual quest for the hind's feet promised her by the Shepherd. I want to share part of the preface of Hannah's book.

"One morning during the daily Bible reading on our mission compound in Palestine, our little Arab nurse read from "Daily Light" a quotation from the Song of Songs, "The voice of my Beloved! Behold, He cometh leaping upon the mountains, skipping upon the hills" (Song of Solomon 2:8). When asked what the verse meant, she looked up with a happy smile of understanding and said, "It means there are no obstacles which our Savior's love cannot overcome, and that to Him, mountains of difficulty are as easy as an asphalt road!"

From the garden at the back of the mission house at the foot of Mount Gerizim we could often watch the gazelles bounding up the mountainside, leaping from rock to rock with extraordinary grace and agility. Their motion was one of the most beautiful examples of exultant and apparently effortless ease in surmounting obstacles which I have ever seen.

How deeply we who love the Lord of Love and desire to follow Him long for the power to surmount all difficulties and tests and conflicts in life in the same exultant and triumphant way. To learn the secret of victorious living has been the heart's desire of those who love the Lord, in every generation. We feel we would give anything if only we could, in actual experience, live on the High Places of love and victory here on this earth and during this life be able always to react to evil, tribulation, sorrow, pain, and every wrong thing in such a way that they would be overcome and transformed into something to the praise and glory of God forever. As Christians we know, in theory at least, that in the life of a child of God there are no second causes, that even the most unjust and cruel things, as well as all seemingly pointless and undeserved sufferings, have been permitted by God as a glorious opportunity for us to react to them in such a way that our Lord and Savior is able to produce in us, little by little, His own lovely character."

David, who knew all about rocky climbing both in his physical and spiritual life, wrote these words. "He maketh my feet like hinds' feet, and setteth me upon my high places." (Psalm 18:33) Another promise that comes to mind is, "He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all we ask or think according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory." (Eph. 3:20) Sister, the next time the enemy seeks to discourage you remember God's power is yours, and He will fulfill His purpose for you. Don't give up, 'cause you will be enabled to skip with Him on the high hills in His kingdom of love. He will give you deer's feet!

With rejoicing, Barbara

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# 3

Dear Sisters in Christ,

I hope you had a good Valentine's Day with someone special. My hubby had planned to take me out to eat breakfast, but we had to scratch that because he didn't feel like eating due to an injury to his mouth. But we spent the day together--working, playing games, and he drove me around the neighborhood to put up posters for a health fair our women's ministry is sponsoring. Sharing love is what this day is set aside to celebrate, and I'm so thankful for the man God gave to love me.

However, God's love exceeds what we can share with each other. His love is unconditional and everlasting reaching out to you with compassion and caring. In this letter I invite you to look at the words David penned in Psalm 34 and make them your own testimony and prayer.

This Psalm begins, "I will bless the LORD at all times. His praise shall continually be in my mouth." Even if your day holds no blessing for which you feel thankful you can praise God for who He is—faithful, honest, patient, kind, merciful, and forgiving. If more of the words which came from our mouths were ones of praise to God perhaps we'd be more aware of how blessed we are as His daughters. So, "Magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt His name together."

"I sought the LORD, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears." There is nothing we can't take to our heavenly Father, and in His presence is soothing peace. Any moment a fear raises its head, remember to trust God and just give it to Him. I am so thankful that His ears are always tuned for my heart whisper. Also that "the Angel of the Lord (Jesus) encamps all around those who fear Him, and delivers them." Yes, God sends angels to walk with us, often saving our lives and helping us in countless ways, but this verse speaks specifically of Jesus, who is also Michael the archangel, being with us. As the song goes, "Under His wings I am safely abiding."

"O taste and see that the LORD is good. Blessed is the woman who trusts in Him!" As the pressures mount and the stresses of life press in, pause in God's presence and sit at His table. Experience His goodness, His comfort, His loving assurances. Feast on the promises in His Word and then rest in the knowledge that God is in control and will work everything out. Leave your worries and problems with Jesus. Trust that He is at work. When you do this your life will be one of restfulness and peace. I've tasted, and my Father is so good!

The Psalm continues with this admonition. "Oh, fear the LORD, you His saints! There is no want to those who fear Him. The young lions lack and suffer hunger, but those who seek the LORD shall not lack any good thing." While this applies to our physical needs, I believe these words also speak to my emotional and spiritual hunger. As I look to God with awe and respect as my Provider, I can testify that He gives me every good and perfect gift so my life is rich and full.

"The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous, and His ears are open to their cry." There is no place I can go where God doesn't see or hear me. He watches me and wants to hear from me, especially if I need something from Him. As a parent I have my ears tuned to the ring of our cell phone, because most often it's one of our kids calling. God's hearing is so acute that all I have to do is cry out to Him in my thoughts and He hears. "The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles." I wish! I've contemplated this verse and wondered just what David meant when he penned them. David knew what trouble was, yet he could testify that God was there for him as a Deliverer. It doesn't mean that God removes the consequences of our choices or physically removes us from every danger and situation, but He is able and does act to help His children. Maybe not in the way we envision, but always for what's best. Mrs. White has written that if we could see the end from the beginning and discern God at work we wouldn't choose any other pathway. That's trust.

"The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit. The LORD redeems the soul of His servants, and none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned." God comforts me with His personal presence. If I'm willing there is nothing God can't do for me as my Savior! God stands up for me! Jesus is my Redeemer and my Friend.

As I meditate on the words of Psalm 34 I realize how much God does for me. He is the reason I exist. He protects and provides. He is personally involved in my life, and promises to be with me always. The LORD is trustworthy, so "depart from evil and do good. Seek peace and pursue it." Everything you need is found in the LORD, who is continually reaching our His strong hands to help you, hold you, and heal you.

"My soul shall make its boast in the LORD, the humble shall hear of it and be glad." We must not keep the good news of what God is doing in our lives to ourselves, but speak to others of how good He is. Spread some gladness around as you praise His name today. And remember, "Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers her out of them all!" May God bless you as you praise Him!

With thankfulness for all the LORD is to me,

Barbara

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# 4

Dear Sisters in Christ,

   One of my favorite activities is taking walks, and this time of year I find delight in enjoying the beauty of spring. God has dressed the forsythia in bright yellow; the ornamental trees in whites and pinks. The maples are showing red, framed against a blue sky. Daffodils, purple hyacinths, and pink thrift bloom in the neighbor's yards. Pastures are becoming a rich green. Spring is the season to which I belong, for it is the time of rebirth.
   Currently I'm reading through the book of Ezekiel, seeking to understand what messages God has for me from His ancient prophet. God used object lessons and visual illustrations endeavoring to get Israel's attention so they would listen to His words. In chapter 16 the Lord compared Israel to the birth of an unwanted baby who was tossed into a field. The story continues, telling how God related to them by accepting and changing and caring for them, only to be faced with their harlotry and rejection of Him. As I read through this passage of scripture I found a most profound application to my own life and saw the beauty of Jesus love for me.
   I am that child, naked and bloody, cast aside and left to die. This is how Satan wants all of us to view ourselves--hopeless. While it is true that I am helpless, Jesus passed by and saw me struggling and said to me "live!" (vs. 6)   He took over my life, helping me grow and mature, but even so, I remained naked and bare. (vs. 7) I remember those days, when as a young Christian I struggled to be good enough to be accepted by God---call them the teen years. Then Jesus passed by again and saw that it was a time in my life when I was seeking to be loved. What Jesus did for me took time to internalize and appreciate, but it's exactly what the Lord says in verse 8-14. "I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your nakedness. Yes, I made a promise to you and entered into a covenant with you, and you became Mine. Then I washed you in water and anointed you with oil. I clothed you in embroidered cloth and gave you sandals of badger skin. I clothed you with fine linen and covered you with silk. I adorned you with ornaments and jewels, placing a beautiful crown on your head. Adorned with gold and silver, dressed as the daughter of the King, you are exceedingly beautiful. You are beautiful and perfect through My splendor which I have bestowed on you." This is the transforming love of my Savior.   I am His bride! Jesus has become my husband, my Redeemer, my Beloved.
   I want to think that I've not played the harlot and remained true to my husband, but there have been times I've not been faithful. As Paul writes, "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." (Rom. 3:23) What amazes me about Jesus' love is that when I fall He doesn't cast me aside nor forsake me. He is patient with my faults and failings. Even when I've hurt my Lord, and probably even made Him angry, He reminds me of His covenant with me. Jesus desires to continue a relationship with me as His own. He has made atonement for my sins, and says He will remember them no more. (vs. 60-63 & Is. 43:25) Further, Jesus says to me, "You are precious in My sight. You have been honored, and I love you." (Is. 43:4)
   So my sisters, if that Liar comes to you with words of condemnation and tempts you to devalue your worth as the Bride of Jesus, don't listen. Jesus gave His life so that He could give you abundant life as His own precious loved one, bound to Him by His solemn promise. No one nor anything can take you out of His arms. (read John 10:28 & Rom. 8:32-39) You have security and love in a relationship with Jesus, your husband and your everlasting Friend.
   So walk with Him amid the blooming flowers of spring and listen as He whispers His words of love to your hungry heart. Be renewed this spring by Jesus love!

                  In love with Him,
                          Barbara
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# 5

Dear Sisters in Christ,

   It is a beautiful spring day in my corner of the world. Last night I was awakened to a terrific thunderstorm as lightening flashed across my face followed almost immediately by loud crashing booms. I whispered to my husband, "I wish we hadn't locked up Spot last night." Our doggy is scared of storms, and she prefers being in the woodshed or some other secluded place, not in her pen during such times. Besides, her metal-roofed house isn't the best location during an electrical storm. It wasn't safe to venture outside, so I just asked God to take care of Spot. The morning dawned, quiet and damp after the night's storm. Imagine our surprise when we looked out of our bedroom window and saw Spot in the front yard! How did she get out of her pen? Irdene went to look, then came back to inform me that the gate was open. "Her angel must have let her out," he informed me, "because I know I took her food into the pen and put her in last night. Either I didn't get the gate latched in the dark, or an angel let her out in the night." Whichever, I know that God took care of our scared pet during the middle of the night. How much more He cares for me!
   "I have graven you upon the palms of My hands, your walls are continually before Me," is God's promise. Jesus has a picture of me in the scar of His hand. He gave His life for me, and He is my life. He knows me on the inside, and He is acquainted with my house and all that happens here. He cares about every detail of my life and intervenes for my best good. "I am with you wherever you go." There is no place I can go but what God is already there, and nothing can happen to me but what He knows all about it. No, He doesn't always intervene to save me from bad things, but He is there and feels my pain. The Father didn't deliver His Son from bad things, be allowed His Son to suffer at the hands of Satan and evil men. I don't know all the whys, but I do know that Jesus does understand and He can be trusted. In the storms of life's darkest night Jesus is there. The angels whom He sends to minister are there. Everything that touches you touches Jesus first.
       "From the story of Daniel's deliverance we may learn that in seasons of trial and gloom God's children should be just what they were when their prospects were bright with hope and their surroundings all that they could desire. Daniel in the lions' den was the same Daniel who stood before the king as chief among the ministers of state and as a prophet of the Most High. A women whose heart is stayed upon God will be the same in the hour of her greatest trial as she is in prosperity, when the light and favor of God and of man beam upon her. Faith reaches to the unseen, and grasps eternal realities.
          Heaven is very near those who suffer for righteousness' sake. Christ identifies His interests with the interests of His faithful people; He suffers in the person of His saints, and whoever touches His chosen ones touches Him. The power that is near to deliver from physical harm or distress is also near to save from the greater evil, making it possible for the servant of God to maintain his integrity under all circumstances, and to triumph through divine grace." (Prophets and Kings page 545; pronouns to feminine changed by me)
   There is a storm that is about to hit this planet, which is the last battle before Jesus comes to rescue His people. God assures us of His care during this time when Satan is allowed more freedom to act. "I will never leave you, nor forsake you," are Jesus' words. "I will cover you with My feathers, and under My wings you will have refuge. I am a strong tower, the righteous run to it and are safe." When the time comes when every human support is cut off, and life as you know it is turned totally chaotic, you can hide in Jesus.
   It is during the smaller storms now that God is teaching you to trust His care. He is able to take care of you, today and always. In the darkness of the night, during the thunderstorms of life, just whisper a prayer to Him and go back to sleep, resting in the assurance that God will take care of you and those you love. Today I can praise and thank my Father, not just for His care over our pet during the night, but for His care over each of my children this day. I can thank Him for helping Luis find a job, for seeing Krisanna through the rest this school year, that He'll direct her to a summer job, and in our farming work God will give us the needed strength in the months ahead. Even though these needs are yet unmet, I can trust my God to provide.
                                         With praise to my wonderful Father and Friend Jesus,
                                                                               Barbara

Sisters,
I didn't know when I wrote the encouragement letter this morning that sever storms with damaging tornados has ripped across several states causing deaths, injuries, and much destruction. That news came to me later. My heart goes out to those who were caught in the path of such storms. Makes the thunderstorm of my night punny. There's a parallel. So often we are caught up in what is happening in our lives that we may not even be aware of the storms fellow sisters are passing through in their part of the country, and that is both physical and spiritual or emotional. Take a moment right now and pray for all your sisters in Christ. May God bless and sustain you throughout whatever is happening in your life today.
Bye, Barbara

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Dear Sisters in Christ,

   Tis the season of gardens. Already my granddaughter has informed me that she wants to eat raspberries. I told her, "We have to wait. So far there are only green leaves on the plants." The rows of green potato plants and tiny corn in our garden look promising. This week we planted our first tube rose bulbs, and for several weeks Irdene and I have worked in the blueberry bushes--pruning, fertilizing, and spraying for blight. Spring and garden planting are near synonyms at our house, and we look forward to the fruit of our labors.
   I want to share with you a poem I wrote several years back.

               The Master Gardener's Plan

       In quietness I listened, as Jesus spoke this thought,
       "You are a special garden that with My life I bought.
       If you will grant permission for Me to work this plot,
       Removing rocks and thistles to beautify this spot,
       Then I, the Master Gardener, will plant, and dig, and weed,
       Caring for My garden, for you are Mine indeed.
       I will transform the soil from rocky, thorny, bare,
       Into lovely, fragrant flowers with exquisite beauty rare.
       These flowers blooming daily in the garden of your heart,
       Can bless the lives of others--they too can have a part
       In the joy of transformation, I, the Master Gardener make,
       When I enter your heart garden to plant and cultivate."

   Each of our lives has a secret gardening spot which the Master Gardener wants us to turn over to Him. He wants to plant the seeds of His love in our hearts, watering and fertilizing them with His Spirit so that we can bring forth the fruits of love, joy peace, patience, goodness, kindness, faithfulness, meekness, and temperance in our lives.
   I've done some gardening myself, trying to pull the weeds and cultivate the character plants of God's choosing. Yet I've only succeeded in scattering the weed seeds or leaving a stubborn root imbedded to sprout and grow again. I could not conquer my temper, selfish habits, nor worry. When I turned my garden over to God He has done the work of making beauty of bareness, and persistently pulls the nasty weeds. I tell Him to continue whatever work needs doing so His plan for my garden can be accomplished.
   These words from the book of Isaiah give me hope and help in understanding that God is able to perform miracles of transformation in me resulting in the greatest blessing.
    "The LORD will comfort (put your name here). He will comfort all her waste places;
   He will make her wilderness like Eden, and her desert like the garden of the LORD.
   Joy and gladness will be found in it; thanksgiving and the voice of melody." 51:3
   "The LORD will guide you continually, and satisfy your soul in drought.
   He will strengthen your bones; You shall be like a watered garden,
   And a spring of water, whose waters do not fail." 58:11
   "The desert shall rejoice and blossom as the rose;
   It shall blossom abundantly and rejoice, even with joy and singing." 35:1,2

   Your life can be a watered garden with lovely blooms where there is only joy. I'm so glad that I've allowed Jesus access to my heart garden where He is at work to transform the dry desert spots into places of beauty, bearing flowers and fruit. How is it in your heart garden?
   This season, as you enjoy flowers, plant and work in your gardens, and enjoy eating fresh fruit and veggies, remember that the most important gardening is what the Master Gardener is cultivating in your heart. Be patient with His work, and remember--He knows what He is doing.
   I just started reading a devotional book on this theme of gardening with God. It is written by Debbonnaire Kovacas, Gardens of the Soul, published by Pacific Press. You may want to purchase it and be encouraged by what she shares.
   Have a wonderful day with the Gardener!
               With love, Barbara

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Dear Sisters in Christ,

   In one of my older song books there's a song entitled There's No Disappointment In Jesus.   Jesus states it this way. "In the world there is trouble and trials, but be of good cheer for I have overcome the world." (my paraphrase of John 16:33) This morning I read these words which Moses spoke centuries ago but they are just as relevant for God's children today. "Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them (giants; difficulties). For the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you." Deuteromomy 31:6. I am so thankful for God's promises!
   Seems of late that I've faced a number of disappointments. While it is more productive to recount blessings rather than grief's, we need to remind each other that none of us are alone yet remember that each one's experience differs.
   Early Sunday morning when I checked on our goat she was in hard labor--today was the day. For weeks now I'd been looking forward to having some "kids" to enjoy. My hubby and I stayed with Daffodil the last couple hours before she finally gave birth, telling her that soon she would have her baby and the pain and hard work would be over. However, her baby was born dead. As the afternoon wore on we decided that was the only kid. She had triplets the first time, and since she was so big we were sure she at least carried twins, but no. I hurt for our pet. I felt keenly disappointed. I cried for the loss to this mother goat, and while I was at it for the pain so many have to go through when their baby dies. I remember, 'cause it's not been that long since we buried my tiny grandbaby when our daughter had a miscarriage.
   I'm tired of the results of sin. I'm tired of staring death in the face over and over. I don't want more disappointments and heartaches--but until Jesus returns and takes the last enemy away death's sting continues to strike. Today I'm thankful that I don't go through these things alone. Jesus, who understands and cries with me, will never forsake me. His purpose of doing away with sin for eternity is being worked out on this planet.
   Speaking of working things out, we tried for our pet goat too. We got a baby goat from a friend of ours who has a herd, but neither it nor Daffy would accept each other. After several attempts we took the kid back to it's mother, even though it wasn't getting enough milk because it was the runt of triplets. The instinct for one's own is so strong that our idea to help didn't work out. All I can do is pet Daffy and pick choice leafy treats to give her.
   Today I realize that my trying to help others in their times of disappointment and loss doesn't always work out either. Sometimes there is nothing I can do but continue to live in hope that eventually these times will come no more. When Jesus makes all things new there will be no disappointments, and He will wipe away all tears from our eyes.
   Now let me share God's blessing of Sunday. My farmer husband and I won the race with the rain and got the next section of tube rose bulbs in the ground and covered before the showers set in. Gray clouds had covered the sky and a few drops fell. While fervently doing my bending exercises setting each bulb clump Irdene threw into the row, I asked God to give us another half hour. He did! We only got a bit dampened finishing up. (We began at dawn, checked on Daffy a couple times, and took a short break to eat a quick breakfast.)
   Another blessing this week is sales for ivy, two van loads delivered. While I'm tired and fighting depression, I'm not defeated! (The baby goat's death is only one of several things.) Courage to go on is what my Father promises, and He's leading the way. I choose to continue to trust Him, even amid life's disappointments. I thank Him for His hand that reaches out to bless, strengthen, and encourage. Jesus says, "Give me all your disappointments, because I care about you." (My paraphrase of 1 Peter 5:7)

God bless each of you,
Barbara

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Dear Sisters in Christ,

This morning during my morning walk along the county road in my neighborhood I was dismayed viewing all the trash. The road ditches are lined with bottles, paper garbage, and various fast food wraps and cups. The county road crew came through last month spraying along the roadsides to kill the grass and weeds, so now a wide swath of sickish yellow against barrenness strewn with garbage is what I see. Years ago I used to walk these same roads with my children enjoying the flowers, and rarely did we see trash. The upkeep along our county road was mowing a couple times during the summer. Things have changed, and not for the better.

Looking upward at the trees I tried to forget the garbage and hoped I'd not stumble. My thoughts wandered to when this earth will be made anew by my Creator. I will be able to walk amid lovely trees and waving grasses with beautiful flowers to enjoy and natural beauty everywhere I look. Only those who appreciate God's nature will live in the new earth. There will be no dead leaves on the ground, nor will anyone cut down trees and leave them in the road ditches to turn brown and ugly. No fast food restaurants either, for all will partake of the life giving food in its natural state of freshness. I may pluck fruit from the trees and eat while walking amid the beauty of the earth, enjoying nourishment of body and soul as I feast my eyes upon the delightful things along the path. Quick walks before I begin my work day will change into long strolls of discovery and pleasure. Further, in that day when I dwell in the new earth among friends, there will be no time constraints nor need to work in order to make a living. I will stop at my neighbor's homes to chat in leisure and praise God together for His wonderful creation.

Today I have a choice. I can continue looking at the garbage in the road ditch and fuss about people being so inconsiderate as to dispose of their trash in such a manner, or I can look upward at the trees and sky while listening to the birds. Really, if I get off the county roads into the woods the view is better. However there aren't enough walking places, it's wet in the mornings and during rainy days, and there are ticks and snakes. Yet, I do get exercise and I've begin walking with my mother so I have company.   Most of my country neighbors have fixed up their yards with shrubs and flowers. They mow the grass and their yards have a peaceful look. So I can enjoy some beauty during my walk.

Dreaming of what the new earth will look like lifts my spirit and inspires me to continue my spiritual journey. I can choose to focus on whatever things are lovely, good, and noble (see Phil. 4:8) or to look at the trash along life's road. If my eyes are hunting out the flowers of blessing and my ears are tuned to the birds of praise perhaps I can look above and beyond the garbage the enemy of loveliness strews along the road. As I walk in faith the exercise will strengthen my trust in a God who is the Restorer and Creator and promises to make all things new, both in this earth and in my life.

For several Sabbaths this spring I have been blessed to go on excursions with my husband into the woods or along country roads. On these hikes and bike rides I have found delight in seeing new life unfold in field and forest. I have documented these hours in nature with my digital camera, and the pictures serve as reminders of pleasant Sabbath hours and God's creative power. The refreshment I find during the Sabbath, as I come apart from the regular routine and spend time with my Creator, is a small taste of what life will be like every day in the new earth. Sabbaths there will be beyond our comprehension!

My friend, one day we can all gather for a day of walking and talking in that land where we won't be separated, and let's invite Jesus to spend the day with us. We'll have a picnic by some lovely stream and . . .   For now, keep looking up. Focus your eyes on the One who is altogether lovely. Our God will be with us to the end of our journey here on this earth, and after 1000 years above at His house we will again dwell in this earth, but all made new. No more trash!
                                                                        Happy walking today,
                       Barbara

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Dear Sisters in Christ,

Mother's Day is just past―a day especially for women―a sweet and bitter day to remember and celebrate. The relationships we form as women are the closest possible to understanding the heart of God, for we are bonded by a love that is unexplainable. The bitterness is when the intimacy of hearts are broken, for whatever reason. Some mothers are not capable of giving emotional nurturing to their children. Many mothers are sleeping in death until Jesus comes, and we miss them so much. There are those of us who have children who have died, and our hearts ache. Mother's Day is a time to laugh and a time to cry. For me it was both.

For me the stage of motherhood in which I find myself is the hardest yet―letting go. And it doesn't get easier with each child either! I miss my babies, although it's been a long time since they were cuddly and I sat rocking them and enjoying their baby skin and soft hair, their dimples and smiles, and finally―eyes closed in sleep. I miss my toddlers―climbing, romping, learning, and growing into individuals with their own ideas. I miss the years of home schooling, the times we gathered around the kitchen table to work on learning projects, story hour after dinner when we'd sit snuggled on the couch, outings in the woods or to the neighbor's pond. I miss my teens―those years were some of the most precious times I enjoyed with my children. (My youngest is still in them, but nearing 18).

This Mother's Day all 5 of my children reached out to express their love for me in gifts, cards, and phone calls. It was a very special day as I thanked God for the gift of my children. And for my husband, for we celebrated 28 years of marriage on Sunday as well. I am so proud of all my children and thank God for all the years I had them in our home to bless my life.

As I mentioned in a former letter, our son is marrying in July, a sweet girl born and raised in Vermont and New York. So, our southern boy has moved north―to Michigan presently, where Sarah's family lives―and has been hunting a job for over 2 months. I'm praising the Lord this week for answering my prayer and providing work for Luis. As he shared with me and his Dad how he came to get it I know it was God's guiding hand.

Last Friday he felt impressed to call some flower wholesale places and inquire if they needed anyone. Well, this place north of Grand Rapids said they might in about a month, to come in Monday and fill out an application. On Monday while Luis was filling it out the manager asked to talk with him, and decided to hire him because he has had experience and liked him. The boss told him that the timing was right, and as soon as they run the paperwork through the company he can begin work. Luis enjoyed his job with Sand Mountain Flowers and is excited about meeting people and selling flowers again. God knew about this all along, and worked out every detail at the right time.

I share this to encourage each of you to not give up about the things you are praying about, especially for your children. God is at work and He knows the needs of those for whom you pray. He has a perfect plan. I'm standing on tiptoe to see what He has in mind for Krisanna for this summer, as nothing has opened up for her a job yet. This weekend we will attend graduation at Bass Memorial Academy and then bring her home. I'm looking forward to having my youngest home for the summer, and will have to try really hard not to "mother" her!

Before I sign off, I want to share with you this verse from Scripture. "My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways," says the LORD. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8, 9. "God's ideal for His children is higher than the highest human thought can reach." (Ellen White in 8T 63)

God's thoughts and plans for us as His daughters far exceed our longings and expectations. He loves our children more than we do. We can safely entrust them to His care. Our prayers are all heard. Our mother hearts are understood by our heavenly Parent.

God bless you, Barbara

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#10

Dear Sisters in Christ,

   I hope you are having a good summer thus far. As a farmer's wife mine is far from boring, as I labor with my husband to clean the tube rose field of grass and weeds, keep the greenhouse work up, the vast yard/field area of our property mowed, and now we are enjoying some berries and cherries ( I picked and made a couple cherry cobblers end of last week). Deciding our summer would be too busy (all of ours are) for activities away we bought a yard swimming pool and set it up on Friday. For hours we let it fill with our cold well water. Yesterday, hot from hoeing, my hubby and I took the plunge and found it delightfully refreshing (mid 60 degrees). Once the sun warms the water I'll linger longer. So, life yesterday had this new interest of hot and cold treatments which left my body tingling. Oh yes, we finished hoeing out the section of field we were working on--three long rows--and got them tilled. We can start a new section today, hurray!And when I get sweaty hot I have the pool to cool off in.
Reminds me of God's promised reward, as the words of the old hymn go.
       When all my labors and trials are o'er,
       And I am safe on that beautiful shore,
       Just to be near the dear Lord I adore,
       Will through the ages be glorious for me.

   I was reading from the last chapter in The Great Controversy this morning. Ellen White shares word pictures of the new earth, where righteousness dwells. Then she writes, "The great controversy is ended. Sin and sinners are no more. The entire universe is clean. One pulse of harmony and gladness beats through the vast creation. From Him who created all flow life and light and gladness throughout the realms of illimitable space. From the minutest atom to the greatest world, all things, animate and inanimate, in their unshadowed beauty and perfect joy, declare that God is love."
   Harmony and peace. How I long for my new earth home where at last I can realize my dreams. One day I can create an exquisite flower garden with pools and benches and all kinds of beauty. One day I can travel and explore the natural beauty of many worlds. One day I'll have friends to do things with. One day everything I hear will be good and uplifting. Praises to God and Jesus will be heard everywhere I go. My days will be delightful and my heart will continually overflow with joy and love.
   But, I have to wait. The great controversy is still in progress, not only in the world but in my life. The battle against self goes on. The fight to submit to God rather than try to work things out my way continues. I hear of heartaches and pain others are experiencing. I struggle with feelings of loneliness and longing.   In the midst of my days God speaks to my heart, and His messages of assurance, comfort, and encouragement keep me going. Thoughts such as these.
   "I will put enmity between thee (Satan) and the woman (Barbara)" Gen. 3:15
"It is the grace that Christ implants in the soul which creates in man enmity against Satan. Without this converting grace and renewing power, man would continue being the captive of Satan, a servant ever ready to do his bidding. But the new principle in the soul creates conflict where hitherto had been peace. The power which Christ imparts enables man to resist the tyrant and usurper. Whoever is seen to abhor sin instead of loving it, whoever resists and conquers those passions that have held sway within, displays the operation of a principle wholly from above.
   Satan assailed Christ with his fiercest and most subtle temptations, but he was repulsed in every conflict. Those battles were fought in our behalf; those victories make it possible for us to conquer. Christ will give strength to all who seek it. No man without his own consent can be overcome by Satan. The tempter has no power to control the will or to force the soul to sin. He may distress, but he cannot contaminate. He can cause agony, but not defilement. The fact that Christ has conquered should inspire His followers with courage to fight manfully and battle against sin and Satan." Great Controversy page 506 & 510

"Praise the name of the LORD. Praise Him, O you servants of the LORD! Praise the LORD, for the LORD is good. Sing praises to His name, for it is pleasant. For the LORD has chosen (your name) for Himself, I am His special treasure and precious possession." Psalm 135:1,3,4

   "I have redeemed you and called you by your name. You are mine. You are precious in My sight. You have been honored, and I have loved you. You are My witnesses and My servant whom I have chosen, that you may know and believe Me, and understand that I am He. Indeed before the day was, I am He; and there is no one who can deliver out of My hand. I work, and who will reverse it? Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing. Now it shall spring forth. Shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. I have formed you for Myself, to declare My praise. I am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake, and I will not remember your sins." selected from Isaiah 43

   I serve a faithful, compassionate God who is a loving, protective Father. My Savior speaks for me and works for me and claims me as His own. Even today, amidst the chaos of this world, the strife and filth, the pain and suffering, GOD IS alive and active. With my hand tucked safely in His I'll continue hoeing and sweating in the summer sun. Together we'll spend time as I plunge into the pool of His refreshing love. I want to be the best farmer's wife possible, not just for my husband, but for my LORD.

His child,   Barbara

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#11

Dear Sisters in Christ,

   It's been awhile since I've written because I'm in the midst of a busy summer. This summer will go down in my memory book as the summer my son Luis married, and chapters written would be 1) Before the Wedding 2) The Wedding 3) After the Wedding. It was a simply beautiful ceremony, a wonderful celebration of Luis and Sarah's love in pledging their lives to each other. God bringing Sarah into Luis life is an answer to my prayer for him. We welcome Sarah as another daughter and I rejoice that we now have a larger family with whom to share. I'll write my "book" about this summer later. For now I want to share with you some personal thoughts of encouragement I gleaned while looking at women of the Bible. I may write out devotionals and post on our Women's Ministry website after my busy summer, but for now here's a brief summary.
   Zipporah: Be obedient to God even if His will goes contrary to what seems right to me. Support and encourage my husband in his calling. (I really related to this woman.)
   Miriam: Praise God for who He is and what He does. Keep a humble spirit. Don't covet another's position.
   Eve: I too am made in the likeness of God. Obedience leads to life, but disobedience results in death. I have free choice, as do my children. For me, as well as Eve, God gave His Son.
   Hannah: God cares about my barrenness and hears my cry. He understands my longing heart and satisfies. He gives my life value. My precious children--gifts from Him--are really His. He will use them, bless them, and care for them.
   Gomer: God pursues an intimate relationship with me even though I am a sinner and unfaithful to Him. He loves me. Jesus is my husband and my Savior. He's paid the price for me.
   Bathsheba: Even though I reap the consequences of my sins, God loves and forgives me. I need to forgive myself and move on. It is to God that I must look for affirmation of my beauty.
   Woman of Shunam: Through every circumstance of life I can trust God and say, "It is well." I know He is with me always and has blessings, even miracles, for me. Kindness shown and received blesses.
   Martha: Jesus appreciates my service for Him, but what He desires most and first is that I spend time with Him. When loss occurs and hope is gone, I can still trust Jesus and God's overall plan. Jesus is my life!
   Sarah: Learning to trust God is a process as I go through the experiences of life. When I fail and doubt God's word--even lie--He is faithful.
   Mary (Jesus' mother): Although born to me, my children are God's and He has a mission for their lives. I must let them go. Even if my desires for them are not what occurs, even if my soul is wounded, I can trust them to my Father.
   As I looked at what is revealed about these ladies I found so many similarities to my life. I related to their experiences and struggles. Like them I make mistakes, have fears and unfulfilled desires, doubt God, sin, and failed to appreciate Him. Through their stories ssGod spoke to my heart. We women are dear to Him, and He cares about us individually. He sent His Son Jesus to show us how God treats women. (I looked at those stories too.) Our Creator understands us--our inner need to be respected, loved, treasured, and trusted. Though sinners, God loves us and reaches out to us in every way He can invent to get our attention. God fights for us. God stands up for us. God chastises and rebukes us. God invites us to a relationship with Him. You are worth more than you can imagine to the heart of the Father and our Savior Jesus.

With a grateful heart,
Barbara

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#12

Dear Sisters in Christ,

In my corner of the world the season is changing with cooler temperatures at night, shorter days, and waning garden produce. Reminds me of the season of life which I've entered. Spring was the days of my youth. Summer can be likened to the years of motherhood and "growing" my children. Now I am in the fall season. My children are grown and building lives of their own. Rooms in the house are silent. I miss my kids. I miss teaching (I home schooled). I miss spending time playing and working together as a family. I enjoy phone conversations when my kids call. I enjoy times when my daughter and grandkids drop by. I enjoy quiet moments with just my husband. However, I struggle to find fulfillment in life without my career of motherhood and teaching. The ivy plants don't converse with me. I can't teach the tube roses anything. Hoeing and picking berries, fixing okra and corn for the freezer, making applesauce―none of these things seem to bring me joy. But then, maybe I shouldn't consider feeling fulfilled as important as being faithful and being content in the fall season of my life. In Ecclesiastes 3 I read "To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven." I'm seeking to discover what God's purpose is for me in this season of my life.

Regardless of the season of life every one of us experiences both difficult times and days of happiness. There is an enemy in the land―the one who sows weeds in the spring, disperses bugs in the summer (and more weeds), causes drought and death in the fall, and barrenness, storms and cold in the winter. Until we live in the land of eternal summer we must endure the hardships of life. The good news is that there is One who walks with us through every day of every season. He plants seeds of love in the springtime, gives water to refresh during summer's heat, puts color and courage in the life during fall, and promises shelter when winter storms come. Whichever season you are walking through, Jesus holds out His hand and promises, "I will never leave you nor forsake you."

The other day I was looking at some of the "falling leaves" and felt really down. I was physically exhausted, and hoped a good night's sleep would help my sagging spirit. The next morning as I was awakening my Jesus spoke to me. "Come unto Me, you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest." (Matt. 11:28) Come just as you are, weak, helpless, dependant. Give Me your burdens and learn of Me. Put your focus on Me, who I am, not on yourself. I understand your longings. I know your feelings. I care about how tired you are. Rest in Me.

Crawling out of bed I asked Jesus to continue talking to me. "Let not your heart be troubled―trust Me." (John 14:1) Picking up my journal I began writing as I shared with my Friend. We dialogued about what wearing His yoke is about, and how His burden is light. I confessed how much I needed His help and wanted to be yoked with Him. I sat there in my rocking chair picturing myself at Jesus feet with my head in His lap as He stroked my hair and whispered His love. Jesus doesn't want me to feel weighted down. He actually wants to give me the desires of my heart. He told me to write my desires down. I have a list in my journal that's between Him and me. I trust Jesus to give me what is for my happiness and for God's glory.

Sisters, we need to share with one another the experiences of God's grace in our lives and thus encourage each other as we walk through whichever season we're in. We need to hear from those who are older and wiser. We need to pray for one another to be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Ask Jesus to meet your needs and then show you whom to share His words with. I covet your prayers, that God will show me His purpose for this autumn season of my life and that I will keep my focus on Jesus.

May God bless you today!

Barbara

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#13

Dear Sisters in Christ,

It was time to mow our place again, and Wednesday afternoon was a delightful time to be outside. After using the riding mower all summer I have this job figured out, and it is one I enjoy. I felt happy and free as I steered around the yard and field―that is until I got out front and remembered the blackberries. The previous time I mowed I decided, without thinking it through, to just mow off the few briers. I thought we could move them to a better location where I'd not have to mow around them. That evening my husband discovered they no longer existed and let me know that he was unhappy and disappointed. I didn't realize that there would be no berries next year since they set on the year old canes, which I'd mowed off. I don't like blackberries, so it's no big loss to me, but my husband does and enjoys eating them. In fact he'd taken time to clean them all out in the spring. At first I felt defensive―which is human nature. Then I felt regret. God spoke to my heart. What you did is selfish, just because you didn't want to mow around the briars and don't like the berries. Truly sorry for what I'd done I went and talked to my husband. He freely forgave me.

With a fresh since of remorse and wondering why I had done such a thing to my husband's berries I carefully mowed beside the new shoots. As I continued around the field I had to remind myself that I'd been forgiven and the briars would grow again. I choose not to continue mowing them down, and in the future I'll talk with my hubby about things before acting impulsively. I'm thankful for an understanding companion who hasn't mentioned the incident since. Forgiving myself is harder.

Thus it is between my God and me. I've made mistakes―deliberately done wrong. I've been selfish in my thoughts and actions. I've sinned. I've hurt other people, and Him. The LORD has freely forgiven me. He holds no grudges. He forgets. I need to follow His example, both in forgiving others and myself. From my failings I can learn not to depend upon myself. I also need to think before I act. But when I do or say something wrong I need to do what I can to make it right and then move on, asking God to cleanse and heal.

I used to look at my behavior, my failings and fallings, and despair of ever making it into heaven to live with God. Now I'm trying to continually turn my eyes on Jesus and praise Him for His perfect character which He gives me. I've found encouragement in these words from Ellen White in the book Steps to Christ.

"There are those who have known the pardoning love of Christ and who really desire to be children of God, yet they realize that their character is imperfect, their life faulty, and they are ready to doubt whether their hearts have been renewed by the Holy Spirit. To such I would say, do not draw back in despair. We shall often have to bow down and weep at the feet of Jesus because of our shortcomings and mistakes, but we are not to be discouraged. Even if we are overcome by the enemy, we are not cast off, not forsaken and rejected of God. No; Christ is at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us. Said the beloved John, "These things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous." 1 John 2:1. And do not forget the words of Christ, "The Father Himself loveth you." John 16:27. He desires to restore you to Himself, to see His own purity and holiness reflected in you. And if you will but yield yourself to Him, He that hath begun a good work in you will carry it forward to the day of Jesus Christ. Pray more fervently; believe more fully. As we come to distrust our own power, let us trust the power of our Redeemer, and we shall praise Him who is the health of our countenance.

The closer you come to Jesus, the more faulty you will appear in your own eyes; for your vision will be clearer, and your imperfections will be seen in broad and distinct contrast to His perfect nature. This is evidence that Satan's delusions have lost their power; that the vivifying influence of the Spirit of God is arousing you. No deep-seated love for Jesus can dwell in the heart that does not realize its own sinfulness. The soul that is transformed by the grace of Christ will admire His divine character; but if we do not see our own moral deformity, it is unmistakable evidence that we have not had a view of the beauty and excellence of Christ.

The less we see to esteem in ourselves, the more we shall see to esteem in the infinite purity and loveliness of our Saviour. A view of our sinfulness drives us to Him who can pardon; and when the soul, realizing its helplessness, reaches out after Christ, He will reveal Himself in power. The more our sense of need drives us to Him and to the word of God, the more exalted views we shall have of His character, and the more fully we shall reflect His image." (p. 64, 65)

Perhaps every time I mow I will be reminded of the lesson I learned this summer, something to do with blackberries and forgiveness. My prayer is Lord, create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me.

We can all learn from our mistakes as we continue allowing Jesus to cleanse us from all unrighteousness and change us into His likeness. We are forgiven and free when we ask! I'm so thankful!

With Gratitude, Barbara

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#14

Dear Sisters in Christ,

This is the time of year when many are counting their blessings and giving thanks. It is a wonderful activity to praise God and remember His goodness to us throughout the past year. In the difficult days God's been present to help. When we've celebrated He's rejoiced with us. We can all give thanks for our Father God who hears our prayers and cares about us individually. We can give thanks for our Friend and Savior Jesus, who relates to everything we go through, and know He is with us always. So, this Thanksgiving Day reflect on what God has done for you through His Son Jesus. His blessings are abundant.

When I think about God's blessings to me I've never considered His work as a beautician in my heart until the other morning. I've been contemplating God's messages to me from the book of first Peter. In the middle of the epistle are these words meant especially for women. "Do not let your adornment be merely outward―arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel―rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible (imperishable) beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God." (1 Peter 3:4, 5 NKJV)

Think about how much time you spend bathing, dressing, applying makeup, and fixing your hair. Then consider how much time you use to nourish your spirit, and cultivate inner beauty. I imagine that most women may not even consider scheduling time to soak in the tub of God's lavish love, nor sit quietly while His Spirit dresses your heart with garments of praise. What if we allowed ourselves the luxury of a complete makeover every morning at the feet of Jesus, the perfect cosmetologist? I'm not implying that we shouldn't dress tastefully. It's important as daughters of God that we represent Him in our manner of dress. What I'm suggesting is that instead of using our morning hours merely on outward adornment our priority as women should be cultivating inner beauty.

Our society doesn't allow time for cultivating inner beauty, nor do our churches or families. Our lives are so full of activity to provide for the outward adornment of ourselves and our homes that we neglect caring for our spirit and heart. The focus of my life has been on "doing", not "being", and I have failed to schedule time for beauty treatments for my spirit. Internalizing the truth that God created me the unique person I am, and that He loves me this way, has been a process. I see areas I'd like changed. I have inner wounds, unfulfilled desires, and temptations. I long for the gentle and quiet spirit which accepts God's will, rests in His promises, and rejoices in His beauty.

The One who is altogether lovely, without spot or blemish, wants to reside in me by His meek and quiet Spirit, and thus adorn me with His beauty. I try to imagine the Creator of beauty, who designed me, using His creative touch in my heart. The cosmetics He uses are fire, forgiveness, and faith. He burns away my defects. He removes my blemishes. He applies a soothing, healing lotion of grace. Then within my spirit God arranges jewels to sparkle forever. These jewels are love, joy, and peace. As I spend time in God's beauty parlor I am blessed and beautified!

The cultivation of inner beauty is a work of art only God can accomplish, but I have a part. I must schedule time and seize opportunities to be in His presence. These may be moments of prayer, inspirational reading, listening to music that uplifts and praises God, or walks in nature. Whatever activity (or just being still) unites my heart with God's is a blessed time. For in His presence is fullness of joy, which will spill outward until even my face will be glowing!

My prayer for you, my sister, is that you make time for God's adornment in your heart, and when His work is completed your spirit will be refreshed, renewed, and ready to face the day.

This Thanksgiving Day think of all the ways Our Father has blessed your spirit and nurtured your heart. Let's give praise to the Master Designer of our lives.

With Thankfulness for His work in me,

Barbara

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#15

Dear Sisters in Christ,

My favorite thing of the Christmas season is the lights. I like to drive around the neighborhood and enjoy the festive look the neighbors have added to their houses and yards. I wanted to add my touch to our place, so last week my hubby and I strung little, colored lights on the evergreen bush out front by our mailbox. Then, as I do every December, I hung a string of lights around the mirror in our dinning room. My coziest memories are sitting by the fire gazing at our Christmas tree decorated with red, green, blue, and orange light sparkling on the silver tinsel. With "Silent Night" playing in the background I feel drawn to the baby Jesus and awed by His birth into this dark world.

The other morning as I sat curled up on the couch, pen in hand and my Bible beside me I prayed, asking Jesus to speak to my heart. This is what He told me. "If I be lifted up I will draw all men unto Me. I am the Light of the world. I am the Lamp set up on a lampstand in the midst of a dark world. I search hearts, and in My presence shadows disappear. Secrets are dispelled. Because I search Jerusalem with a lamp, and bring light into the darkened corners, the truth will be revealed. Many walk in darkness and some desire light. Lift Me up!

That's why I choose to come. This earth was so dark with a misunderstanding about God. To the shepherds, I was Light. To the Magi, Simeon, and Anna, I was Light. Even as a child I was Light to many. During My public ministry I was Light, especially to those individuals who sought Me out. Even on the cross, surrounded with darkness, I was the Light. Lift Me up!

I light every one born into this world. Where I am allowed to burn in the hearts of women, I will illuminate the corner of their communities with beacons of inviting light. Lift me up in your soul temple! Don't hide under a basket of insecurity or fear. Lift Me up! Don't crawl under a bed of discouragement or doubt. Lift Me up! Put Me on the lampstand of Your heart and My light will fill your life with light. The smile on your face, the words you speak, the way you live will shine because I am lifted up as the light of your life. You are not the light. I am. My word is. Do understand. The more you lift Me up, the more I can do in you. I will shine brighter and brighter until My Light shines in glorious brilliance and this earth is lighted with My glory. Lift Me up today!"

This season, as I light the red and green candles, plug in the strings of lights, and enjoy the soft glow of Christmas I remember that Jesus is my Light. I need never live in darkness. He came to give me His Light and Life. How blessed I am!

My prayer is that I may lift up Jesus, and like a little candle burning in the dark I can make a difference. It is Jesus who lights my life with His love. To me, this is what Christmas is all about―His love, His Light.

Blessings to you this Christmas.

With love,

Barbara

Note: Here's a challenge for you. During the hustle and bustle of the holiday season take time just for you and Jesus. See if you can find the scriptures Jesus spoke to me about, as I shared in this letter. Open your Bible and ask Him to speak His message to your heart.

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